Nov. 18

I'm down 10! uh huh! uh huh!

Curtis is down 3.5. I'm so happy for him! He is very tickled with this new regime, says he feels sooo good and it's something he can maintain. He came to bed last night in a guilty mood. "I ate 2 olives." I said, "Well, that is less than come home, having a snack before dinner, eating dinner, having dessert, and a snack before bed." He can loose really fast and I'm betting he will indeed be down 20 before Christmas. He'll be in Tennessee for 5 days the first week of December, other than that he'll be home, ie, less meals out and fabulous restaurants that are paid for by his work that beg to have 3-5 items off the menu tried.

Nov. 16

It seems that I have inspired Curtis. After seeing me not eat dinner at Fresh Choice, he's decided to try it--to not eat after 5:00 or before. The first day he didn't eat after lunch, silly man, really believe "no pain no loss!"

Since then he's been reasonable.

Last week he called me from the road and said he was suffering from acid reflux and that he would go to the doctor about it when he got back. I suggested at the time that he not eat such big dinners. This morning he told me "I cured him" because he's had no more startling nights of reflux. heh heh. He weighed this morning, and while he hadn't weighed at his top, he was down 1 from our start, and that has to mean he'd dropped 3-5 pounds in about 5 days. He does that. pout. Not only am I not eating late, but I"m not eating sugar. And I'm poking along way slower than I'd prefer!!!

Anyway, I'm really really really glad he's back in the game.

Josh's life as he knew it will never be the same. Football is over. Today he has his first day of getting out of school at 2:00. He doesn't have a 6th period. So he's taking the train home and it stops 2 miles from our house. I suggested to him that he plan to walk home, or even jog, for his exercise, but I'd pick him up at the station if it were raining or he was tired or whatever. I hope he can continue to loose, or at least maintain. Beautiful man child.

Nov. 12

I am so proud of Griffy! He knocked this flu out in 4 days!!

I coached him to not "fight" it, but to feel it. To picture the little germs in his body and picture the antibodies dancing with them and escorting them right out of his body. He said he had a dream of just that, he described it to me in vivid detail. Sweet boy!

And I'm down another pound, yessss, one more and I'll be at 10, the lovely 10. Not that it can be seen yet, but I sure can feel it in my pants!!! 10 more after that and I'll be able to wear these jeans that I bought and have never been able to wear...

We went to a movie and dinner last night, Fresh Choice, and I did not eat but REALLY enjoyed the company of my boys/man. It was late. I did, however, have my first chocolate attack in weeeeeeks. I managed through all of Halloween with a huge bowl of candy bars on the table for a week after and didn't eat one piece. But we have these See's chocolate bars that we are selling for a fund raiser...I took a nap to ease cramps and woke up....c-h-o-c-o-l-a-t-e. Yup. They were too sweet. But I crunched down 2 and a half anyway.

Nov 8

Griff has the flu. 103.1 fever. How exciting. How will the week play out?

I went for a walk today, enjoyed the sun, the fresh air, my wonderful fabulous amazingly awesome sunny day in November in San Francisco. mmm! It was not a brisk walk, it was a love walk. Enjoyed it so very much. And amazing, I swear to god my thoughts are lighter coming back---downhill--than going up. It's a slight grade, you don't even really notice you are going uphill, until you turn around. Then all my problems are suddenly solved and the whole world is lighter.

I feel SOO GOOD when I don't eat so much. Astounding.

Nov.7

So to celebrate I ate late last night.

Remembered one reason I love to NOT eat after 5:00...

The big thug in my stomach when I wake up next day.

Ugh.

Nov 6

Ha ha!

I'm down 8!!

Yesss!!!

Nov 5

So here's the plan.

Stay away from sugar, except for thanksgiving day and christmas day, just for a change of pace.

Have most food eaten by 3:00, or 5 at the latest.

Little picks at food that I prepare after that or when at other places for dinner.

Work out when I can, as often as I can.

And most of all, focus on what I want.

What I want. Not what I don't like.

"Wouldn't it be nice if...."

ie, stay in the positive, and not just about food and body, but about everything.

It's astounding how quickly I get into the pic pics. pick on myself mostly.

It is a kick not eating sugar. I've been doing it for a couple of weeks now. I don't get the intense cravings, tho especially when at grocery stores I think about how nice it would be to chew on a snickers. I made 6 dozen choc chip cookies today and I did stick my finger in the dough, and I did have a bite out of a couple of cookies--to determine if I liked the recipe. So I'm not freaking about this, like muffins have a lot of sugar and I'm eating them. Mostly just wanting to shake things up, get a new relationship with foods.

We were at a pot luck tonight, my favorite football parents all in one room, it was a BLAST. Huge piles of really good food, 3 kinds of amazing salad. Did not. I had one bite of curtis' sausage and a half glass of wine. mmmm! Most of all it is interesting to feel how it feels inside. Empty, but not needful. It's good. I will be hungry for Breakfast!

Nov 4

Ah, this is my favorite time of year. There is nothing quite as awesome as San Francisco November warm days. Yup, November inspires me. It was last November that I started jogging/walking again. So time to ramp up again.

Griff is done with football so I have my walking partner back. We went Monday to the Marina, and I do so enjoy his happy chatter. We'll all weigh in this weekend, but I think Josh is down 25; Griff may be up, it was just halloween; I'm down 6; Curtis is also up. His job is really challenging him because it is so centered on food. I fear he comes home, eats a snack, eats dinner, than a snack later in the evening...

Josh is done with football week after next. He'll be getting home sooner and I can close the kitchen earlier. Maybe 7...just an hour later, but 7 sounds so much better than 8!

So. Deep breath. Sometimes these thing take time. Lap 2.

BTW, Lia commented that I wasn't writing anymore, thank you for that encouragement "I'm baaack." I didn't know anyone was reading...